One of those....

Oh MY!!!  Is about all I can say about today.  The face about is basically all I saw and heard all afternoon.   I can say it wasn't my worst day but man it was like walking on egg shells.  Can I blame it on the time change???  I know that this morning I woke up exhausted.  I think the time change as well as being up all night the other night with Blake just is catching up with me.  Not to mention the boys are waking up now at 6 and 6:30 which would have been 7 and 7:30 (normal) but, man!  I truly am at a loss as to what to do and what to try.  I have heard of a book called "Raising a strong willed child" and I think I may need to read it. 

Within a 30 minute period today Blake was put in his room twice and popped once during that time too.  He threw a toy because he was mad and it was the closest thing to him and then he wasn't happy with the way I gave the snack or the snack itself so it too was thrown (OH NO you did not!!)  Don't think the fit was limited to that 30 minutes and lesson was learned, that would be too simple.  I am at a loss!!  There was  day I could talk to Blake and explain something to him and he was say "otay".  Where did that Blake go??!! 

I know consistency is the key and I do try very hard to be consistent.  I also will admit there are moments where they probably see me falter....either due to circumstances, environment, distraction.  I also try to pick my battles.  Today is yet another one of those days where I feel as if I have been defeated in every battle.  Yes, Blake is two and Caden went through this but I still have to tackle it.  Yes, Caden is still difficult when meals are concerned (better but still hard....some nights worse than others).  I don't want all this to be a battle and for me to look back on these years and feel like I missed out on some great memories because I was too busy fighting battles.  However, I do want well behaved and respectful little boys.  Oh too just find a balance. 

Man the lessons of parenting and that doesn't even touch on marriage.  I remember as a young bride (without kids) I was talking to coworkers at the hospital and discussing the importance of dating throughout your marriage.  I remember them saying "good luck with that" as I talked about how I hoped Jason and I would have a date night each week.  I do remember changing that to each month.  Now I am happy if we have decent uninterrupted conversation each week.  Who can afford a sitter??  We wait for family to come into town but then you feel guilty about that and are too tired.  I know I should be more creative but by the end of the day all my creativity is gone.  I just want my time. 

Okay, so sorry for all the rambling here.  Guess it is my therapy after having to laugh at how many tantrums I dealt with this afternoon.  Just keeping it "real"!!!!!  On a positive note.....the weather has been absolutely beautiful the past two days!  I have two beautiful and healthy children and a wonderful husband who works hard to provide for us.