I am wondering if you will always look back on life and think...."that wasn't so bad". However, I do still remember how hard it was when Blake was first born and Caden was just a baby himself. It is just a different hard now. Looking back at some old pictures it is sad that I seem to forget how little Caden once was (and Blake). I am so absorbed with his 3 1/2 year old self that I forget the innocence and sweet curls....he is such the little man now. I fear that my life seems so fast forward right now that I will not remember any of this time. Will I remember this age with both of the boys? I was able to do so much more one on one things with Caden when he was the age Blake is now. I regret that I cannot do more organized activities with Caden because Blake isn't at that age yet. I am sure it will take pictures to bring up a lot of the memories....much like now. I really need more patience with my boys. I told the ladies at the gym yesterday morning that I had yelled so much already that I didn't even like myself right now.
This may seem like a strange post, but I was looking back at pictures and it struck me...especially with Caden for whatever reason. It has been an odd week for me emotionally so thanks for humoring me with this post :)
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I'm sorry it's been such a difficult week; we've all been there! It's great that you can write and process it all. During these moments it's easy to be extra critical of ourselves and the way we handle things, but I hope you can be kind to yourself. Motherhood is such hard, hard, hard work. I think you're doing great!
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